Tuesday, 29 September 2009

Bossy or Care??

Hmm.. Almost everything in the world can be seen from two or more different sides.. And the current topic that has been around my head is this one: Bossy or care? Let's try to make it a fun writing..

I'll try to see from 4 different perspective..

From the person that tells other to do things: "I care about you and this is what I believe s right. therefore you should do this because it will do good to you".

From the person who get the message:
1st: "Yes, you are right. Thanks for telling me and care for me"
2nd: "I am different from you. I will do my way and you do your own way"
3rd: "Mind your own business"
4th: "tadadadadada" (don't want to hear/pretend not hearing anything)

From the third person:
1st: "hwa.. he/she is concerning about her friend"
2nd: "so bossy"

From the friend of the third person
"Definitely bossy!!"

What I am trying to imply here is that the first person is not always right telling people to do stuff coz people are different and they have differnt style in living their lives. But, it is not wrong either to remind them to do what is right. Need balance I guess, and wisdom. Also God knows our heart!! If we remind or tell others to do something good because we want what is good for them (good concern) the, I guess it is not that bad..

Remember that sometimes appearance or what is seen can fool you, but God knows the heart. Still, you need to respect others' choices..
And try always to think positively!!

Thursday, 24 September 2009

The time has come...

It has passed my bed time, but I can't sleep
Once I close my eyes, I will be no where
And when I open them again, in no time I will be there

I have set my mind and prepare my heart
I know that this time is coming
But why.., why just imagining it makes these tears fall down
why...why...

By tomorrow, officially i am no longer bounded
I am free!!! yay!!! yay?? yay??
why does my heart cannot compromise with my mind??

Father, please give me strength
to stand for one more day
so I could give you my best

Sunday, 20 September 2009

"This is part of God's plan"

I met a friend yesterday who simply asked me how can I be 2nd year in my age now and I explained to her what was going on before, from my medical check up to foundation problem and she symphatise me and asked me why I still choose to study in the place I currently study after it gives me so much trouble.

First thing that jumped into my mind was agreeing with her and complaining, but that thought was gone before I managed to say it. Instead, I said:
"It's ok. This is part of God's plan and He knows that this is the best for me"
Afterward, that sentences kept ringing on my head and I amazed that I said it. hehe..

Is this part of wisdom that I learnt on Friday? haha.. Anyway, I believe that it is from God. The feeling of not complaining is much better =)

Thursday, 17 September 2009

I am blessed!!

Finally, with my all, I can say that word after long time. Yes, I am blessed!!

In life, it is easy to complain, easy to critise, easy to be disatisfied and easy to blame or judge. But it is hard to be content, to thank God for the circumstances and hard to realise that your life is a blessing!! And you are blessed!!
You think that if things are going good, that's awesome but you do not embrace it. If it is bad, you... (answer yourself)

Last few weeks, I was straining myself for my 2 tests which I would say it was not easy for me. But it turned out to be good. It's not because of what I have done.. I realise that if I am doing it alone, I fail!!

On my bed, I realised that God has blessed me so much!! meaning abundantly!! During my study for test I struggled so much to keep my body and mind as one. But, when I am in my low point, I knew I could run to God. He also gives me mum and dad who encourage me and trust me. I have a leader that helps me doing my work and I have a mentor that pray for me and willing to listen to me without blaming me. And I have a flatmate that can keep me laughing. Thanks.. Thank to you all for your love, your care and your prayer. Thank you...

I have learnt much more than I needed for my two previous tests..

Monday, 14 September 2009

Sunday at Barista

Last week had been tough for me in term of my study. Strangely, I always feel sleepy when I am studying and many thoughts came to mind which really hinder me from studying. And the result.. I was depressed.

Yesterday morning, the weather was pretty good. Not like most of the people like clear weather with bright shiny sun, I like weather with sun hides behind the clouds and the wind softly blows, just like yesterday morning.. It was good one for me =) I had mochacino in Barista and it was pretty good. But I still prefer cappucino with cinnamon in city lib. I just love cinnamon.

Anyway, I was reading Isaiah 50 which my friend actually intended to give me to let me know that God is the one who gives each of us instructed tongue, but I read the whole chapter. Amazingly, I found this verse, which is the verse that firstly helped me to be the person I am. When I started become Christian, I was lack of self esteem because I thought I could not do anything. I was the least person in the world. But this verse stroke me and in my walked everyday, it become something that strengthen, challenged and gave me hope. And the verse is:
"Was my arm too short to ransom you?
Do I lack the strength to rescue you?" and this is said by the LORD..

Overall, yesterday was awesome. I visited friends' church and found the worship was really good and so did the preaching. Then God helped me with my study yesterday. I did not feel sleepy. Still have lots to memorise before the test come..

Isaiah 50:7
Because the Sovereign LORD helps me, I will not be disgraced. Therefore have I set my face like flint, and I know I will not be put to shame.

Wednesday, 9 September 2009

Encouragement from a sister

Wah.. It has been a while..

Hmmm.. Just think that I would want to write something. So many things happen beside my study and I have learn heaps these days, especially yesterday.

I finally really talking to my sister yesterday, I think this is the first serious talk I had with her since I came back to NZ. Man, she is real awesome!! I was complaining and pour out my feeling to her... but her reply was amazing!!

She reminded me the lesson that we have ever had and moreover, she shows them through her life now. These are just some points that I got while I was talking to her:
  • Positive thinking in any circumstances and to people surrounds me
  • Try to see people from their positive sides
  • Being humble
  • Obey the Lord's commandments and be patient because it is not easy sometimes and the world often does not compromise with you
  • In living my life, work together with God
  • Live my life lively.. Be happy always!!! always!!!
  • Keep working toward my goal, this would be a motivator in doing whatever I am doing right now. Like my sister really wants to have a France cafe at whatever stage of her life
She is awesome!! And I could see that this is real for her since she lives those points!! Moreover, she is learning to be discipline, something that I can't really imagine she is living with. Oh, I love her so much!! And de, I dedicate this post for you. Cici sayang dede!!!

It is true that example set by action is much more powerful than by words..
I praise you Lord for my sister...

Friday, 4 September 2009

Today, we are...

We are the way we are because of....

Sometimes we say that genetic is what makes us the way we are. Come to think about it, it is so not completely true. Genetic does play role in shaping us, but... the main factor would be environment (nurture part). you know evolution ay? Genetic follows what environment requires..

Environment talking about culture where we are brought up. And childhood is when we absorb most of the culture and apply it to our life, making it our habit and set them as our values. Here, family play such important roles in setting up your values. So, you might have the same culture but different values just because you are in different family.

Experience to study abroad and live in a city with high diversity makes me realise that this is what differentiate us as human. I meet them when their culture and values has been well set up in their lives, and so with mine. How should we responds to these differences are what matter. I definitely think that we need to respect other cultures and values, but I also think that we need to make some changes to be able to live in harmony - meaning true harmony, not only in the surface.

I think being Christian, I have learn a lot the real values of live. To admit, it is hard to change my culture, habit and values that has been planted by my wordly live to the culture, habit and values of the Kingdon of God. But this is the one that can bring harmony in living with each others.

So, why not give it a try to a good stuff =)

PS.
Who you are now determined by your past and you cannot go back and change your past.
Who you are in the future determined by your life in the present and you can do something today to make a better life.

Isaiah 43: 18-19
“Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.

Tuesday, 1 September 2009

Expression

Never think much about this topic until recently...

People are judged from their appearance (clothes and accesories that they wear), the words they speak and probably their family background. Based on those things, their heart, their mind and their characters will be judged. Sadly, many people buy this and they tried to be someone who are not themselves just to get good judgement from others. I would be a hypocrite by saying that I am not part of these people. Yea, I am part of them -up to certain level..

Those are not what I am going to write about. I want to write about expression. This morning as I walked to the bus stop, the pictures of my friends telling me: "when you say that, I keep wondering in my mind whether you are joking or serious; because you are without expression", "I thought you were upset", "Weren't you fighting?" or etc... Seriously, I am not a person who get easily hurt (or maybe ;p), argue, fight or upset. I am not trying to defend myself and not saying that those feelings are absent in my life, I just feel that life is too good to always fill it with bad stuff... Anyway, I would not blame them for saying that, I know that I am just good in making 'expression'. hehe...

It just makes me realise that expression could really show who you are (your heart and your mind) more than your words or your outer appearance. Or it could lead others to misunderstand you. Not saying it is bad, sometimes it could be good too... You know that many people are getting heaps of money and could entertain others for making good expression. ok, I am talking about those movie stars =)

Be wise in using God's given expression ^^