Ku lari ke hutan kemudian menyanyiku,.
Ku lari ke pantai kemudian teriakku

Sepi..sepi dan sendiri aku benci
Ingin bingar aku mau di pasar..

Bosan aku dengan penat
Enyah saja kau pekat
Seperti berjelaga jika ku sendiri

Pecahkan saja gelasnya biar ramai
Biar mengaduh sampai gaduh
Ada malaikat menyulam jaring laba-laba belang di tembok keraton putih
Kenapa tak kau goyangkan saja locengnya biar terdera
Atau...

Aku harus lari kehutan
belok ke pantai

What am I doing this semester?

Eleven reports, two computer assignment, one essay, 6 semester test, 5 laboratory tests and 5 final exams are what I have this semester beside the regular 15 hours lab that need preparation and 11 classes that I need to attend and of course making notes. Not to forget mentioning the part time work on occasional weekends.

Do I think they are a lot?
They are enough to finish my energy of the day, but not enough to take my sleeping time.
They are enough to make me missing home, but not enough to make me decided to go home (now).
They are enough to make me work hard everyday of the week, but not enough to take my Sunday.
They are enough to keep me studying till night, but not enough to take my devotional time.
They are enough to make me procrastinating, but not enough to take my joy and peace.
They are enough to make me cry, but not enough to make me lose my hope.
They are enough to make me think that I am incapable, but not enough to make me give up.
All because I know that God is with me
He guides me and strengthens me
He loves me and he cares for me
He is my portion and my deliverer
And yes, I could do anything through him who gives me strength

But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation.
I will sing to the LORD, for he has been good to me.
Psalm 13:5-6

“This one is done. This is also done!! Yep, done!! Done!! Done!!! I am sure I will have time by the end of this week to see him.”
That was the second day of the second week. I started catching up my notes from last week. It was a very busy week due to orientation activities. My schedule was messy. But that week, things were going back to its place. I planned to finish my study on weekdays and rest on weekends. I was confident that I will be able to do so.

“So, how are you doing?” That was the fifth times my lecture asked me that question this semester. I guessed she was concerned about me doing five papers. I gave in; I gave her desired answer, “Well, I am tired. I could not believe taking five papers could be this tiring.”
“I told you so. Your classes and lab burden increase by 20% and your study time decrease by 20%”
“But I try to manage it and having rest or play around on weekend.”
“Umm, I do not think you could do that. You won’t have time to play around even on weekends.”
“Nah, I will”

I did my notes after class and I finished a bit early tonight. So I checked my reports, assignment, labs program and tests.
“Oh no, I guess she was right!!”
There were heaps to do!!! Oh well, let it be the concern for the next day. Now, it’s bed time and I want to sleep to the fullest!!!