First Turning Point

I went to a good Christian private junior high school. I could not afford to be there if I did not get scholarship. In my first year, I made a sincere friendship with some girls and our friendship last until now (whenever you read this), indeed, we are not in the same country anymore. We keep in contact, support, encourage and pray for each others. I felt acceptance from outside of my family for the first time. Regardless to my physical appearance and inability to socialise well, they took me as they friend just as I was. Maybe it's normal in modern country, but here, you would consider appearance and money in making friends. Singapore took them away from me after being together for 3 years in Junior High School. Well, they got scholarship from there.

In my third year of JHS, I had friend who was in the same class as I was. She was a good Christian and one day she came to me and told me that eventhough I looked ok on the outside, i was broken inside. She was right! I was still the old me. I still could not accept the way God made me; poor, fat face with pimples, ugly, unable to socialise, etc. I always thought that I was the least person in this world. so naive.. She told me also that God knew me inside out and He cared for me. It was magic words for my brain. That was the point when I start changing. I wasn't changed outwardly, but inside. I did not see myself the way I used to see it. I saw myself as God's precious one. I was accepted and more than that, I am loved by the Holy one, God.