Last day of 2010

Sky is bright blue with small white clouds flying around. Sun gives such beautiful color combination and fresh dry air..

Another new year will I spend by myself; not by my own will but because of the circumstances.

Started I thinking what I want to achieve in the year to come.
2011 will be a start of new decade. I am sure in the next 10 year, there will be many changes in life. There are 3 dreams in my life and I hope I can achieve the first two within d next decade.

For next year, I do have some plans and goals which of course I hope I can accomplish. Most of all, I want this year to be the year where God teaches me, guide me, lead me and shape me to be what I am created to be before I leave my student life.

Happy New Year.. May it brings a fresh spirit within us!

Stop and think

Oh my gosh!!! What have I been doing???

I was dreaming of being being a doctor
I was dreaming of being pampered
I was dreaming of being surrounded by loved ones
I was dreaming of spending all my Christmas and New Year with mum, dad, nick n koko
I was dreaming...

I open my eyes,
I see them being doctors, engineers, musicians, models...
I see them with the people they love
I see them reaching their dreams
I see them there

And I??
I am here.. wondering if I choose the right path
The road that I have been through was hard
So many people I have hurt
And dream as a doctor is becoming vaguer each day
I am at a place where I am most uncertain about life

Am I in the right place??

Flash

There is a saying that people come and go in our lives like seasons.

I saw my facebook, I have so many names under my friend’s list. Wow, do I know them all? Do I have that many friends? Indeed, I do know them and I know more people than what it listed

Many of them, I just know by name or had one or two conversation before. Most of them are friends by group like high school, church, university, and other organization or workplace where I was in before. And through those groups, I have made some good friends.

I look back and I still remember clearly those people who have made my life and contribute to the person I am now. They have moved on with their lives and so did I. God does put new people around me. He does not leave me alone neither my friends. I am thankful for the people that He put surrounding me now.

But at this moment, I want to remember them. I want to remember those memories back on those days. I miss them. I miss you ci Febi, I miss you pampering me, sharing stories and just relax together. I miss you Etlana, Editha, and Christy, the time we hang out, gossiping, laughing, stories, jokes, food, talking about books, guys, etc. I miss you Dumbai and Casie, I miss our jokes that only us can understand-even when a word mentioned now, we can still remember back and laugh. I miss you Esther-sharing bible verses, prayer, spending so much time together in personal meeting, OCF leaders meeting, Friday night, comp lab, meal together, and many more. I miss you Shirley- I miss the time we can hang out and joke freely and our time with others too. I miss the spontaneity of Jess and her cheerful attitude. I miss you guys.

I miss dede too. I so miss you. I miss hanging out with you and cella. I miss laughing at you, piggy back by you, massaged by you, teasing you, watching movies with you and you driving me around. I miss Jenny with her “cacad”. I miss so many things in the past. I do!!

Currently, I feel that life is hard, but I do believe that future will be better. I am certain of it. I just need endurance and perseverance. I also need to believe that He who started it is faithful and He will carry me to completion.