My Short Pixie Hair

Out of nowhere, the idea of having short hair came to me yesterday and today, I decided to cut it short and I do like it eventhough my family do not really into it...
I feel fresher and different. I would say that this decision is one of a big decision that I took without compromising with my family. I feel like I grown up now, even for many people this is just a small decision. Today is my mum's bday, but I certainly know this is not such a good surprise for her! But I know that today is one of the historical day in my life whether I will cut my hair this short again in the future or not ^^
Thank God for the satisfaction that you put in my heart. May from now on my life glorify you

Craving for food

This holiday, I've been learning how to cook better.. But the more I cook, the more I imagine different food, the more I want to eat them (despite my decreasing appetite), and the more I miss home, I miss Jakarta... I want the food!!

Angel or Devil?

Am I an angel? Am I a devil? Or I am half angel and half devil?
We stand in one extreme and think of us either good or bad
We create the standard and judge whether others are good or bad based on our personal or community standard
Who are you "good" people that you judge your neighbour bad? Have you look deep into your own self and explore how much evil you have in your own heard, mind and soul?
And don't you know "bad" people, how much good come out from you? How the world treat you unfairly just because you are different!!
At whichever side you stand, know that there is someone that truly care for you... No matter how broken you are!

Weather

Palmerston North...
This city where I live is said to have 4 seasons in a day.. I do not think so though. I think what's unique here is the summer is the mix of heat, wind, rain and cold..
Last few days, I was burned by the heat. I could not believe I could just stand and sweat waiting for the bus. The heat was serious!! The sky was clear and the sun shone directly and burrn my skin, make it even more brown.
Today and the next couple of days (predicted), the rain will be pouur out. This morning, the sky is covered fully by clouds and the rain pour down smoothly. I open my window in my room, listen to the sound of the rain, feel the breeze air and smell it.. I simply love it =) It's just hard to get around with this weather, except if I have a car. However, this weather is the one I like the most =)

Happy New Year!!

Ups, isn't it too late to say Happy New Year?! Oh well, I still think that this is the beginning of another year, so it is stil new =) and never too late to wish you happiness.. So, Happy New Year!

Last few weeks have been quite emotional, a bit unhappy, lonely and live just for the sake of living.. spending each minutes doing whatever I have to do or do nothing for the sake of finishing another day.. fiuh.. what a boring life.. no passion, no joy and no dream.

Today, while talking to my workmate about a funny work mate who left for holiday, I was reminded of one important thing in life. This thing has been part of my life and my sister's life. I hope she remember this too. I want to live my life to the fullest! I want to be happy! I want to be able to smile and laugh sincerely from my heart in whatever I am doing. I want to be able to see life from its goodness. I want to be able to thank God sincerely because I know He has done and is doing good in my life. I want to laugh as much as I could. I want to laugh when I walk, when I ride my bike, when I sit in the bus, when I work, when I cook or when I lay on my bed. Moreover, I want to laugh in my cry!! I love laughing!! yes, I love laughing =)
When I laugh, I know that the world rejoice with me and such joy is unspeakable..

My cousin said that adults world is not playful, joyful and full of worries.. Yes, I and people consider me adult now, I have worries and fear. But, I want to choose to be happy!!