My heart

Hhmmm...
I think I have two big hearts.
My first heart quite big to fulfil my big body needs. This heart pumps my blood to fulfil the need of oxygen of my every single cells in my body. Heart that has been working really hard to keep me thinking, study, do my work, growing and be who I am physically. And I am not quite sure if I have taken care well of this heart of mine. However, I admit that this heart is important physiologically.

My second heart which some say is quite big too is a heart that is important for me for my psycology, my character and my life for eternity. Yes, heart that has more important duty then just pumping blood (again, this is also important).

They say I have big heart to love many many many people. Indeed, there are so many in my life that I love - different love for each person with different intensity.
I love my family so much. I love mum, dad, my sister and my brother. And I would give anything I have if they want it (as long as I dont sin against God), except my life cause it belongs to my LORD.
I love my best friends in Singapore though they are far from me. I love Esther. i love Grace. I love Daniel. I love ci Natalia. I love ci Febi. I love Casie. I love Nyari. I even love ci Intan. I love Joo. I love Jung. I love Della. I love aunty Gloria and Pastor. I love OCF and there are just too many people whom I love. I love to many until my brain is not capable to think of them all. My time is not sufficient to be spent with them all. My stregth is very limited. But inside my heart, I know deeply that I love them. I love them so much and I know I would not like my life without each of them.

Even after all that description, I state boldly that my love is full of flaws. My love is very very very limited. It is FULL of FLAWS. My love cannot make me do much for those whom I love. My love often cannot overcome the pain I got.

But there is one being that love me wholly. His love is flawless. He loves me no matter what. His love conquers all. His love sustains me. His love remains the same even when my love for him fails. He loves me and watches me when I use all my time to study. He loves me and guides me when I use all my time to work. He loves me and guards me when I use all my time to ignore him. He loves me even when all I love is myself. He loves me and helps me carrying my burden even when I am complaining carrying little burden that is left. His love gives me hope. He takes me when I fall and he looks at me with his loving eyes. He even died for my sins. And He never regrets loving me. He is loving me joyfully.

WHAT SO UNDESRVED LOVE...

And I am telling you, this love is not only for me.. It is also for you. It is enough for everyone and it is still complete and perfect!

Teach me Lord, with all the love that I have.. with all my heart, I want to love you first and foremost. And with this love that you have given me, I want to love others so that they may know your love. Let them see that my love is imperfect and only yours is perfect. So that your name will be glorified!! To you the praise forever and ever!!